so yea..whatever..haha this weekend has been eh..

friday: came home, went back out to eat some lunch with the school crew, then nick picked me up went to buy elizabeth her gift, then headed to teresas house, went to the mall, then nick left and amanda/teresa/me/fab/sylvie/joe/mark/some chick/albert..went to eat hooters. that's about the day

saturday: went to meadows, went to teresa's house. then starbucks with tree and david, then back to tree's houses hung oout for a while..david..haha u crack me up!! then i dropped tree off at her violin lessons, then went to elizabeth's house. ohhhh i saw an angel today =) he got a nice haircut..he looks spiffy...well he did before..but ya know what i mean! haha then went to the forums, then fab's house. then tree's house..haha then chinatown..big ol' nothing =)

tomorrow gotta write research paper, do chem, do theses, fun..yep..bye

quote of the day or year:
Be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves. Live the questions now. Perhaps you will find them gradually, without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer.
--Rainer Maria Rilke


contemplations by debbie | 10:00 PM |

yay!! the weekend is over..blah..de blah..haha i've gotta do chemistry & government theses & research paper. fun shit..

today might go watch a movie..with who? i have no idea~ yep..haha yea..blah de blah..haha i've got nothing say..so interesting huh??

oh one thing! IT'S TOO FREAKN HOT!! i really needa get rich so i can buy lots of new cute summer clothes..haha


contemplations by debbie | 1:48 PM |

school is crap..whatever...

it really feels like friday you guys. do you agree? yea..i've got to much homework to do this weekend..blah..so many huge tests before the quarter ends..what crap!!!! blah blah!!

yea..i've got nothing to say..


contemplations by debbie | 1:49 PM |

India Arie- I Am Ready For Love

I am ready for love
Why are you hiding from me
I would quickly give my freedom
To be held in ur captivity.

I am ready for love
All the joy and the pain
And all the time that it takes
Just to stay in your good grace

Lately I've been thinking
Maybe you're not ready for me
Maybe you think that I need
To learn maturity.

They say watch what u ask for
Cuz you might receive
But if you ask me tomorrow
I'll say the same thing.

I am ready for love
Would you please let me in
I promise I wont complain
I just need you to acknowledge I am here .

If you give me half a chance
I will prove this to you.
I will be patient kind faithfull and true
To a man who loves music
A man who loves art
Respects the spirit world
And thinks with his heart.

I am ready for love
If you take me in your hands
I will learn what you teach
And do the best that I can.

I am ready for love
Here with an offering of
My voice, my eyes, my soul, my mind
Tell me what is enough
To prove I am ready for love.
I am ready .

sigh..is there a point to hold my life back? is there any hope? i'm starting to doubt it all. the love i feel is just fooling me? no one has experienced the greatest pain, until they felt heartache. it's the worst thing in the world. should i still have hope?

blah..he's in a wonderful relationship..i can not even compare to her. what have i got to offer?..no matter how much it hurts..to urge him on, with topics that hurt me. i push it aside..and wish him the best.

every action has their consequence..beware you guys..you just might end up screwed like me..

bye :(


contemplations by debbie | 2:21 PM |

blah de blah..what else is new? school..took my chemistry test..i really hope i did alright..blah..that's about it

i'll start studying soon..bye


contemplations by debbie | 2:14 PM |

::sigh:: all i want is you..

movies, phrases, songs, places, foods, everything around me reminds me of you.

sure there are others, and they are great people. and there could be potential. but not enough as long..as i love you. becuz i fear. i dont want to hurt anyone anymore, sorry that i didnt stop at you, then this wouldnt be a problem. i know if i were given the chance in a year or two years i'd grab it. leaving everything behind.

what am i to do? what else can i do. i will continue my daily routines of trying to put it away, to let new things come to my life, but it's so hard when my heart doesnt want to.

everyone your answer to what i want for my birthday. is something no one can give me, but one person. and you know who you are. and it's quite obvious i wont be getting that, but yea guys i'll be happier with whatever you get me you know that. i appreciate the thought that you would even get me ne thing.


contemplations by debbie | 10:01 PM |

haha..aww-ness..my tag-board has been visited by an angel..hehehe happiness..lol =P but yes, i will not get a permanent tattoo. there ya go..haha now peircings..ahha we'll see~!

but yes..school is so fukkin BLAHHHH..just kill meeeeeee!! i've got a chemistry test tomorrow...which i've only known about...since today..BLAH!! but yea i'm gonna study so hard that test...if i get a horrible grade like usual..i'm gonna really cry..but yeaa..oh and i've got much more tests this week..let's see..
stats: wednesday
anatomy, government: thursday

ohh and other crap
research paper for wordp: 21st...blahh great present...mhm...rawr! i just finished one!! and i have to start another one..what crap!
anatomy: some sort of crap..ive gotta write up..dont know when it's due yet

it's all crap..*heads spilling*..ahhhh

but oh yeaaa..haha yesterday was bad..i had nothing nutritional to eat at alllll!! hmm well hmm i had a banana! haha then mini banana nut muffin, some shrimp, then 4 cookies..and coffee..hahaha great huh!? that was my whole day..that's debbie's diet..when no one likes to go out to eat with her..and when her mom is out of town =)

yea my stomach was feeling very..not good by the end of the night..i really need real food..but ehh..nope just went to bed..haha it was a odd feeling..it felt like hot acid..was filling my stomach..making me hot..then it'd calm down..and start again..really..odd..haha and i'm thinking not normal right?! haha =P

but after school today..i ate some rice and meat..so it's ok..i'm set for a while..hehe hopefully..i'll be eating prime rib with alex tonite..if things go as planned..whatever if not if i'm really hungry (which i wont be, haha) i'll order some thai to go.

so yea, i think i'll go do my stats hw, then do some random hw, then study my asssssss OFFFFFF!! i will prevail!! stupid chemistry!!!


contemplations by debbie | 1:59 PM |

so yess! my saturday..was bleh..went to lunch with my mom..then headed to pick up jesse..then went to hallmark..then wandered aimlessly..wasting my gas..yea..then we finally went to fabricio's house, sat there for a while..then i headed to teresa's house..we sat for a while. ate some dinner. then sat some more. then we went to some place i didnt wanna go to so i left. and went home..but then later that night..i went and got a henna tattoo..i like it..it could be a possible permanent one..if i get one..yep..so yea..

today i went to the cemetary, then washed my car, just finished eating some lunch, and gonna read government soon..then do some laundry..then do chemistry..then do my government essay..yepp...byee


contemplations by debbie | 1:03 PM |